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1.

The day starts in desire,

Continues in grief,

Ends in desire.

2.

Thick fog in the adoptive city

I almost lost my way home.

3.

I am the product of the love story

Between my memory and my oblivion

4.

Somewhere between longing

And silently crying because the world is beautiful.

5.

loneliness

I will never adapt

6.

maybe, without our bodies

we’ll be complete

7.

I love this city whenever I leave it

8.

That winter

My loneliness was interrupted

9.

I was like an 80s love song

10.

next time I meet him in a dream

I’ll tell him to fuck off.

11.

I wrote love poems to shadows

12.

and the comfort of thinking

of what you have lost

or not what you have lost, but

what was taken away from you.

13.

To look back and think:

God, it is so strange

14.

Desire:

one thousand open eyes inside your body

waiting to see something.

15.

A happy life of sad poems

16.

Why have I become your memory?

17.

On the street:

Half of the time praying not to meet you.

18.

       But I live here now, 

      In my almost enjoyable solitude

19.

Through dreams,

I learned to forgive.

20.

To find love almost felt

like a mission.

21.

the desire to express

22.

he still has the keys to my loneliness

23.

my keyboard heart

24.

It scares me a bit

That I might love you forever

25.

My anonymous walks and bitter coffee

26.

His eyes didn’t reflect light

Light green, like raw crystals

They’re my only reference

To our mutual shadows

27.

    But I live here now,

    In my almost bearable solitude.

28.

And once again

Silence was fatal.

29.

She loved him with a love

as certain as death.

30.

But desire is not optional

31.

Slightly shameless in a pure way

32.

I would have said it back

But it all became poetry before it could be dialogue.

33.

He makes me want to be loved

34.

tonight in bed,

watching nostalgia take her last breath

35.

    But I live here now,

    In my ever solitary freedom

36.

Saturday night revelation